I have experienced anxiety and depression over the last few years and I want to share my story of how things unravelled.

For me, my mental illness was a silent disease that crept up on me over time with no indication of what it was. A physical illness produces clear physical symptoms but the mental illness from which I suffered developed subtly and I was unable to put my finger on what was wrong.

My story begins in the autumn of 2015 as the oil and gas industry suffered a recession and I lost my job. For the first time in my career I was out of work and I lost my regular routine. I was living in Vietnam at the time, feeling very alone and unworthy even when surrounded by friends and the most beautiful women in the world. From the outside it seemed I was living the dream but inside I felt lost in a life with no direction or hope. I spent my time incessantly thinking negative thoughts about myself, feeling increasingly disconnected from the world.

I moved back to England and stayed with my parents. Weeks and months drifted by with me spending time alone in my bedroom, as a mid 30’s failure, whilst friends were settling down and having kids living the ‘perfect’ life. I managed to get another job but I realised at this stage that the cause of my anxiety and depression lay much deeper than simply being unemployed. I suffered from low self-esteem, chronic pain, erectile dysfunction and porn addiction which made me feel profoundly unhappy about myself. It was time for me to face my fear, to let go of the denial and find a solution.

I focused on my erectile dysfunction by seeing a urologist in London who then subscribed testosterone enhancing medication – clomid – which I took in good faith. What the doctor didn’t mention, however, was the side effects of depression and insomnia. This took things to a whole new level as my anxiety went through the roof and intrusive thoughts dominated my life so much that I became a nervous wreck. I started taking antidepressants, going on sertraline for 3 weeks, but the tablets were doing more harm to me than good, so with my gut instinct, I stopped taking them.

At this point my engineering mind went into overdrive as I searched for an alternative solution. I began practicing yoga and meditations to quiten my mind. The books I was reading on depression and anxiety told me that emotions were the root cause of these mental illnesses. I found the Emotion Code by ‘googling’ emotional release and signed up for sessions with an emotion code practitioner.

After receiving sessions of the Emotion and Body Code I have completely changed my life and mental state. I am no longer at the mercy of my anxiety and my erectile dysfunction has significantly reduced, and for the first time in my life I have a real passion and interest in the work I do.

My purpose in life is to share what I have learnt through these challenging times and to help others that have similar issues. The Emotion Code helped me turn my life around and now, as a practitioner, I am ready to help you!